The Blues

I guess I am just feeling the blues, My children have grown and moved away, I am so alone now and I am so used to having my home overflowing with all the arguments, the love, the family, God I miss my family. I miss the girls arguing over hair bows and boys, and my son agitating them all the while. I miss them telling me about their dreams and wishes, to talk about their day while breathing the same air, just curl up with everyone and watch a movie, or sit at the table and have dinner, go ride the four wheelers, I want the laughter back, I need love in my life everyday. I feel myself slipping into the role of the little old lady everyone left behind.

That sounds so selfish but really it's not. I was born to be in a large family and now it's gone..... 

    

My home now...........I do have Mike and the twins but everyday the boys push me away, and Mike is not an affectionate man, does not like to touchy, kissy or huggy.

    Hmmm, give and take, Every relationship should be give and take . Whether it is between lovers, between mother and child , or between friends. Some times one side gives more than the other but it usually balances out in the end, but then there are those people who do most of the taking and very , very , little of the giving. Those are the people I get so frustrated with, the one sided relationship does not benefit anyone , the taker misses out on the wonderful feeling of giving and the giver gets tired of never getting love and concern in return. It basically boils down to no respect. Not for themselves and not for others. Children are the hardest people in the world to teach this lesson to. As  a mother I get exhausted trying to teach it. I get called a nag, and a whiner because I ask for respect from my children, in all honesty I am just tired. I am tired of asking things ten million times and being looked at like I am from the planet Mars. So to stop any fights I have learned to ask three times, get ignored then do it myself.